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My original plan for this weekend was to leave school behind about 3:30 pm and not think about it again until Monday morning, maybe Sunday night.

Those plans were nixed by a special ed parent who goes hot and cold on the progress of her student.  She’ll go a few days without bothering us, then is in our face every second.  She decided we had to have a meeting after school on Thursday — the results of  the meeting: I ended up with a day and a half of work.

Got the majority of it done yesterday, finished up this morning.  School computer is off. 

Made a major mistake in packing – when traveling I usually package my medicine in little bags, marked by day (you can get them at Walgreens).  This time i didn’t.  Big mistake, left the medication at home.

Had to go back and get it and a few others Friday morning.

I’m tempted to go home tonight.  Depends when we get done – I am at an agility trial and we had a large entry yesterday and I finished about 5:00 pm  We have a bigger entry today, so I’m figuring even later since I’m in the last class.

We’ll be at least two hours earlier, maybe even 2 1/2 since there is a smaller entry and there is no FAST.

I'm wearing the smallest skirt and smallest shirt that I've worn in about 3 years.  Yes, it is one that I saved, and does have some stretch.

One of the reasons I resorted to it, was that I am out of clothing.  Packed for three days of dog showing (and yes, I run in skirts — pants don't fit me — I keep trying).

This is a tough restriction but I am getting food down and I am dealing with it.

I got on the scales this morning and I am losing weight.  This restriction is working well.  I am having to slow down my eating even more, make better choices, and work harder on it all together.  BUT it isn’t too much.

I’ll also attribute losing more weight to my new dog — Dulce — writing about her at my other blog:  http://www.kweaver.org/adventures_in_training_th

I’m a bit more active — have another extra class a week, and making sure everyone goes outside every hour or more often.

We’ll see.  My band anniversary is soon.

This restriction is tough, but I am losing weight.

Yesterday was interesting because I had trouble drinking a slim fast in the morning.  Really need more warm liquid!  Had some soup for lunch, and heading out to see the puppies.  Ended up bringing home a dog.  Okay, she is under a year old.

I stopped at my absolute favorite — Krystal's — southern White Castle, worked there as a teen for a while — got two burgers and an order of fries.  Took me a good hour to eat the burgers, and ate about 5 fries and lots of catsup.  Good to get reminded of the taste.  Finally had diet gourmet dinner late, but that's the last time in a long time that I eat that dinner.  I was even having trouble heating it up as I have had some much trouble with it.  Not enough sauce, I think.

It's been a process for me.  I use food for a lot of things, and do some binging especially when things are not going well.  I can still binge with the lap band, but I have to do it differently and it does end up being lower calorie foods.

Baby steps — and learning.

This is the second (maybe third …) year I’ve managed to really come out good with the charges for my mental health care.

I’m not sure how it works, but apparently we pay 20%/80% until we meet our out of pocket, then the health care is no charge.

I’ve met my out of pocket.

I’ve been authorized for 10 visits, which get me past all this mess.

So, I got 6 visits free through the Employee Assistance plan and then 10 visits free with the regular insurance.

Not bad.

Plus got a new CPAP out of the deal.  Which reminds me that I need to check on my mask status.  I think I might be due a new one.

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And yes, I am and they will be shipping it on Monday after they check my benefits.

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The biggest reason I’m seeing a mental health professional is to learn how to deal with my co-workers in a way other than coming home and eating all evening.

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Examples: 

Special ed coworker keeps doing little things that stress me and my principal out.  I’m trying hard to make sure I’m not part of that issue and keeping control of the situation.  Can say much more but the whole situation may wind someone in court.  Maybe even me. 

Testing this week.  Way too many instructions to keep them all straight and every day I’ve made a minor mistake   Like today didn’t have the kids names, student ids, and test booklet numbers on a form.  Yesterday didn’t have the test booklet numbers on the answer sheets.

Found out today that I have to do an extra week of training – first week of June, and I can almost guarantee it will be a waste of time, as they are having the PreAP CS teacher in PreAP Math sessions.  Also over the last two days, I’ve been told I can’t do my AP training which I haven’t done in three years and they’ve done major revisions on the test and I have 4 students working on AP.

Being told portables had been broken into and computers stolen.  No emails, no specifics, just a heads up.  That means major paperwork, but okay.

Little things that add up.

Good news, it’s been months since an adult had a temper tantrum in my room (well, I might have had one in front of my 8th period class when they were acting up last).

I’m on my first day of mushies — had Tom Thumb Broccoli and Cheese soup and it was very good. 

I am definitely feeling more restriction, and I’m a touch worried that it might be too much restriction, but I won’t know until Wednesday evening.

Anxious to lose more weight though.

I go to mushies after 4:00 pm today.

I’ve done better on this round of liquids after a fill, precisely because I have been very careful to make sure I have liquids available and going down my throat every minute.  Helps the hunger though I think this fill is helping too.

Forgot that I wanted to say more about this fill.  I had a fill back in December of 1 cc.  I got in the middle of a stress festival and wasn’t able to eat, even having trouble getting liquids down.  I had an unfill of half, or 1/2 cc.

I was afraid the tech would want to go to a full full of 1cc.  I wanted to go to a fill of 1/2 cc.  Funny thing, is that she was thinking of going to .4 cc  and was relieved that I was happy with the 1/2 cc. 

I have gained two pounds since the un-fill – which the fill tech said wasn’t bad. 

I’ve done 24 hours of liquids, have another 24 hours to go. Living on popsicles, soup and slim-fast.  Do feel like I have a decent restriction again.  I’ve been starving every afternoon.

Watched Celebrity Apprentice last night — by the way, the guys didn’t win.  Goldberg left without earning money for his charity.

The best news though is that Bret Michaels has ended speculation about his daughter’s medical condition without broaching her privacy.  In other words, he said that they had got the tests back but he didn’t give out a diagnosis.

By the way, I thought it was really funny that Michaels was giving advice on how to be interviewed, since he comes out as such a doofus anytime he is interviewed.

Hotel reservation made (non-refundable) – food order from Diet Gourmet is made – which is on the way to the hotel from the trial site.

So I need to get a sub, concentrate on rebuilding my body from the lack of sleep, and get ready for the trial.

Going to bed now would be a good idea….