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Why I am still depressed

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Other than a possible diabetes complication of depression, I know that I am still depressed and unhappy with my life.

Fit4D helped me figure it out completely, but I have been suspecting it for some time. 

It’s the lapband.  I’m going to try an unfill Monday, IF I get a half day sub.  Right now, the sub system is down, and when I checked last night, I didn’t have one.

I am so restricted on what I can eat right now it isn’t funny.  I can’t eat solid food before around 2:00 pm, and there isn’t much food I can eat of the solid variety.  At lot of this is due to the school year, this week was awful and I still have to write an email about it, solving the problem.

The following foods are completely out:

    • pork (though I can do sausage if I avoid the skins)
    • most beef
    • fried or grilled chicken
    • vegetables
    • fruit

With the exception of anything that is cooked in a sauce.  Notice I didn’t say sauce added, though that can help.

I cough food up on a regular basis, no matter how slow I eat.  Coughing food up isn’t pretty and probably isn’t good for me.

What really triggered things was the Fit4D people bitching about what I was eating.  The phone call from the coach was very negative along with the emails.  To continue with them I had to set some boundaries because the depression is worse.  I’m on the verge of tears even writing this.

I honestly can’t eat any of their suggestions.

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2 responses to “Why I am still depressed”

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    bytehead

    I find their attitude a bit puzzling. A friend who went the permanent way spent a year getting her diet and system down to handling it without issues, and she isn’t diabetic.
    And I can relate to the depression. I’ve been having heart issues (a fib), and after undergoing my third catheter ablation in 13 months, and STILL not keeping rhythm, I was thoroughly depressed for a couple of weeks. It didn’t help that I hurt from the last try (why, nobody really has a clue, I shouldn’t have), the only time my left leg felt good was when I laid down, then I developed cellulitus on the leg, and after seeing my leg and finding out I was still in a fib, they scheduled a cardioversion the next day (ablation just isn’t an option now, he took out all the tissue he could already), with my wife still out of the country for work. Now, two weeks later, it still has me in rhythm. Knock on wood.

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    bytehead

    I find their attitude a bit puzzling. A friend who went the permanent way spent a year getting her diet and system down to handling it without issues, and she isn’t diabetic.
    And I can relate to the depression. I’ve been having heart issues (a fib), and after undergoing my third catheter ablation in 13 months, and STILL not keeping rhythm, I was thoroughly depressed for a couple of weeks. It didn’t help that I hurt from the last try (why, nobody really has a clue, I shouldn’t have), the only time my left leg felt good was when I laid down, then I developed cellulitus on the leg, and after seeing my leg and finding out I was still in a fib, they scheduled a cardioversion the next day (ablation just isn’t an option now, he took out all the tissue he could already), with my wife still out of the country for work. Now, two weeks later, it still has me in rhythm. Knock on wood.

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