I haven’t had a day where I can just sleep out, and probably won’t get that until next Saturday because of the dog show this weekend.
However, I’m feeling better, and finally building back. For example, I actually got through most of the school day without needing something to eat and finally broke down and got some pretzels out of the vending machine.
Here’s what happened for those who haven’t been paying attention … about a month ago, I got some really hard to take news about my job, and I started not sleeping.
Basically I’m staying at the same school but am doing a drastically different teaching assignment which affects my identity. I’ve been a computer science teacher for 13 years. At the beginning I taught only 1 section and have built the program over the years. HOWEVER, our school is a NCLB school, basically our families can leave. We’ve had a hard time getting experienced core curriculum teachers, so most of the people teaching non-core curriculum classes are getting moved to core curriculum. So I’ll be teaching math full time.
I’m not good at change, especially when it is forced on me. It still really bugs me but I’m getting used to it.
On top of not sleeping I went to Europe. I took my CPAP machine with a battery pack on the plane, but couldn’t sleep because the air was just too dry. It got so dry, I couldn’t stand the mask any more. Finally when I got to the hotel, the converter I brought blew out the first night. It blew out all the circuits in the room.
At this point I hadn’t slept for 5 days. I freaked and came back instead of going to our final destination. I’m glad I did as I came back I started feeling better. In all of this, the gum infection the dentist and I were trying to avoid flared up full blast.
Somehow in all this, I managed to make an appointment with my sleep doctor. The intent was to get a replacement mask, but I ended up getting a travel humidifier so maybe I can sleep when out of town.
While I saw him, he noticed my temperature was up, and decided I probably was on the edge of a sinus infection. I think it was the gum infection but he could be right.
However, between not sleeping, being stressed out, and on the edge of sick, I started eating more and more and it got harder and harder to exercise and work out. I finally decided to give myself a break when iShape gave me 50 minute workouts a day for a week.
The good news, is that the uncontrolled eating finally stopped. And I got back on the treadmill today. It all seems a lot better.