Can’t sleep.
I have lost another pound — so I am 25 pounds less than my heaviest — 47 pounds from my goal weight and by the way, that goal weight will still mean I am morbidly obese. My goal weight is the weight I was when I was very successful at dog agility. Once I hit that weight, I will reevaluate.
The reason I can’t sleep is that the dermabound is peeling off and it is making all my skin itch. I’ve never itched so much, and it isn’t just the wounds where I am itching.
I actually went to bed at a good time last night, but woke up and can’t go back to sleep.
By the way, I’m still diabetic. Had another blood sugar excusion, done on purpose — wanted to see if I could walk off my dinner and I coudn’t. The nice thing, is that the two excusions I have had been very easy to correct without the rollar coaster.
I want to explain the snarky, "I’m still diabetic". My mother and other people around me who just read the popular press have been convinced for years if I did obesity surgery I would be cured of all my chronic ailments. Well I knew I wouldn’t, and it’s a little fun to be snarky and say "yes, I’m still diabetic". By the way, I still have GERD, I still have sleep apnea, and I still have arthitis.
Besides if I wasn’t diabetic any more it would be mean I’ve wasted the last few years of my life trying for tight control and that I should have done this surgery years ago. It’s really just been the last two where I couldn’t lose weight. I was even able to lose weight on Symlin. Just not this fast. And not for long.
I don’t look like I’ve lost this much weight yet — my torso is still swollen from the surgery. I can wear the next size down upper body clothing, but not the lower body. I’m wearing my biggest skirts and am still a bit uncomfortable, but it will come. My digestive track is still offended by the surgery. I’m having bowel movements and each one is a bit more solid than the last. In fact, each day is slowly better than the day before.
I feel like I’ve lost this much weight though, especially since the last 11 pounds have happened in a week. Imagine having carried a 25 pound pack and suddenly not having to carry it, wouldn’t you feel instantly better? It’s just the itching right now, and it will be over in a day or two.
I’m on full liquids right now, so that means I’m still doing jello, stock, Crystal Light, and sugar free popsicyles. I’ve subtracted two protein bullets, so I am still doing one, and have added 3 Slim Fasts a day. I’m hoping to go to my favorite Mexican restaurant soon, get a chicken and torilla soup from them without the chicken and tortilla — put it in my magic bullet and pulerize it and drink that. The broth alone was great last Monday, and I figure go one step smoother with whats left will be really nice.
The best news, is that I haven’t been physically hunger since the surgery. A bit head hungry, lots of head hungry because of habit.
TDD is a tad higher because of the carbs in Slim Fast. It’s at 30 right now (TDD is number of insulin units a day). And I’ve lost 11 pounds since the surgery.