Almost missed it. Good news, the topic of the day fits where I have been perfectly.
I have been in a really bad place the past few days. I got some bad news on Friday and I had to process it.
It’s back to – if you don’t hear from me things are really bad.
I know that if I focus I can get myself so that I can be productive as a programmer / web designer. I know that eventually the right thing will come up.
The problem is, that I get easily discouraged. It also bothers me that the teaching door is firmly closed. However, the two positions I had found involved driving a long way to work and I know I don’t enjoy that either.
I am going to work on the things I love – creating things, sharing what I have learned about diabetes and my health conditions – thus I am going on with the website Diabetic Recreational Athletes, or http://www.drecathletes.com for short.
Dulce won’t go on job interviews, user group meetings or Microsoft training any more but she will go where she is already welcome – the gym and stores. They really missed her at the gym the three days I took off and she has always alerted well there.
Good compromise as I read how one young diabetic thinks everyone should have a diabetes alert dog.
I would like to help make that possible too.
Teaching wasn’t a good fit. It worked well until the past 6 years. I really had a hard time managing my health and diabetes. They loved to move our lunches around, they loved to decide to completely disrupt the day by adding assemblies, pep rallies and the like.
I worked all day in a room filled with pigeon debris for most of the past 6 years. I know that it affected my breathing. The only saving grace was that the children were only in the room for 45 minutes at a time.
The same people who ignored that, keep piling more and more things on me, even though I told them I couldn’t handle any more.
One of the final last straws was assigning a student to me, and then telling me that I had to make sure he ate breakfast – the woman who not only can’t eat breakfast anymore and has to drink something warm to get it down until about 11:30, but also it makes me physically sick to watch others eat then.
The last few days was involved grieving losing teaching but not losing that job.
I’m ready for fun and making things.
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